Letting go of pain and suffering is not easy. Often times things happen to us that are greater than we can even wrap our minds around. Sometimes things are so severe, that we bury them deep inside pretending they didn’t happen. Often times we have convinced ourselves that we were the one to blame for the incident. Sometimes we become angry at God, blaming Him for allowing things to happen. The truth is, God is not to blame. The enemy is alive and real, and He will attack and attempt to devour us, in any way he can. God has given us free will to make decisions in our lives, and sometimes our decisions can be dangerous. It is not that we have decided to allow things to happen to us; but over the course of time, some of our decisions have left us vulnerable for the enemy to attack. God is still in the midst of our lives, but He waits for us to call on Him, versus forcing Himself on us. We are in control of who controls our lives. This does not mean things will not happen to us. This means we have the ability to allow God to guide our lives if we let Him. When we develop a relationship with Jesus, we begin to gain wisdom and understanding, which will help us make better choices and decisions. My life began taking a turn toward healing, once I began understanding this.
I’ve often been asked how I overcame some of the things I faced in my past. Reflecting back on this question always brings me to a deep understanding of how great our God is. Years ago I was violently raped. Many years went by before I ever spoke about it. I had buried the violent incident in my ‘shame box’ deep within my soul. I pretended it didn’t happen. I pretended it wasn’t there. I put many other things in that same ‘shame box’. It’s amazing how much we can collect over time. Eventually, we have to let our ‘shame box’ open up enough to face the truth. The only way to true healing from pain, resentment, bitterness, and suffering, is to face the truth and walk through it. It took me so many years to come to that understanding. Remembering the details of the violent violation is one of the most painful things I’ve had to journey through. But it’s also one of the most healing things I’ve overcome. Not only did it allowed me to release the resentments and the festering pain, but it allowed me to forgive my perpetrator. Many of you have walk-through serious incidences in your life, that you have placed in your ‘shame box’. Conveniently tucking away the incident, leads to deep seeded pain. This pain can consume our lives. Depression, isolation, bitterness, sorrow and resentment can build up over time. It’s time to open up the ‘shame box’ and clean it out for good. God is not an author of shame. He is an author of love, hope and joy. God desires for us to find healing in Him. Jesus understands the suffering, and His love can cover all your pain. Shame is something we carry around as punishment to ourselves. Again, shame is NOT of God. We are forgiven, redeemed, and cleansed from any mistakes we have made; when we allow Jesus into our hearts. As we process through our days, pray for God to allow you healing. Jesus understands. Jesus suffered, carried all our sin and shame to the cross, and died for us. He is our comforter, our healer, our Savior. He knows what you need. He knows how to walk you through it, and He will carry you every step of the way. His arms are wrapped around you every second of every day. Release your heart and mind to Jesus and you will find peace, healing, love, and comfort in Him.
© Layla Freeman 2017
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