My Ashley


I wasn’t going to write this morning. My heart aches, and it was difficult to process words. I have been praying through it…and Jesus always comforts me. As I was looking for something in my closet, I stumbled upon a small journal. This journal was my daughter, Ashley’s. It has been three years since she passed away. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about her. I have her picture around the house, and every day I tend to the precious plants I received from her funeral. I have notebooks and journals that I have read through before. However, this one in particular was difficult. She writes about me…her “loving Mom”. She writes how she’s beginning to like Now & Later candy, and caramel…and says “Mom loves these”. She writes about how she misses me, and wishes I could hug her and hold her, and tell her everything would be ok. She was away at college during this difficult time in her life. She was struggling….yet independent. As any mom or dad, we wish we could take away any hardship from our children. We look back and wonder if we could have done things different. But we do the best we can, at the time. This world is hard and unkind in so many ways. We cannot protect our children from that reality. The things we can do, is pray and help give them a solid faith foundation. My Ashley had scripture and encouraging writings all throughout this journal. I know she was seeking the Father, and praying for Jesus to help her. This brings such joy to my heart. Even though it may have been difficult to let her go from this earth…there is no greater gift, than that of the eternal life she is living today.

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. PHILIPPIANS 3:12-14

And this is the promise that He made to us; eternal life. 1 JOHN 2:25

God is with us.



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Layla Freeman

Layla Freeman is a wife, mother, friend, and encourager to all. She is a passionate disciple of Jesus Christ. Layla is the C.E.O. and Founder of the Non-Profit outreach ministry called “Light of Hope”. This is an outreach to help individuals and families who are struggling with addiction and life difficulties. On Christmas Eve 2013, Layla lost her oldest daughter Ashley. Ashley was only 23 years old. There is no greater pain than child loss. Layla attributes her ability to face each day, to the overwhelming love of Jesus, who carries her through. This very difficult journey has given Layla the desire to help those who are facing difficult times and to help people see the hope. Her love for helping others is the passion behind Light of Hope. Light of Hope non-profit ministry has a vast variety of services that encourage, educate, empower and bring change and hope to the lives of those who need restoration and new life. Layla was awarded the Non-Profit “Leading Lady” award of Rogers County in 2018. She was also voted #1 community volunteer “Best of Claremore” in both 2019 & 2020. On June 9, 2020, Layla Freeman was Inducted into the Prestigious Marquis Who’s Who Biographical National Registry, as well as recognized as an “Amazing Oklahoman” in October 2020. Additionally, her non-profit Light of Hope was awarded the "Non-Profit of the Year" in both 2019 & 2020 and is also the winner of the International 2020 Drug Enforcement Administration (DEA) Community Drug Prevention Award. Layla is also an author. Her first book publication, HOPE IN THE STRUGGLE, offers hope in the midst of dark times. Layla is also the author of the encouragement blog “Layla’s Light,” found on Facebook or on her website, She has been actively writing since 2001. Layla’s personal experience in the extreme difficulties of life gives her a deep understanding of brokenness. Therefore, Layla’s writing and passion behind her desire to help others is empowered by the truth of God’s unconditional love and forgiveness, and the hope we find in God’s promises. Layla is also a Business Owner/Vice President of Asset Industrial, Inc. She and her husband, Randall, work together providing services necessary for the oil refinery industry. She is also a respected Executive Committee Board Member, serving on the State Northeast Oklahoma Workforce Development Board. Layla is a public speaker and enjoys the opportunity to speak and present to groups, schools, churches, organizations, conferences, etc. She has a passion to bring awareness, education, and hope to our society. She believes that working together, and collaboration with others is the key to healthy families and stronger communities. In addition, Layla is a Stephen Minister, Congregational Care Minister, Lay Servant/Speaker, and a volunteer for the Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation. (Layla has two daughters who face Type 1 Diabetes daily).

3 thoughts on “My Ashley

    1. I am so sorry to hear your loss. My heart goes out to you. I will be lifting you up in prayer. Losing a child at Christmas is even more difficult. Oh how I understand. My Ashley died on Christmas Eve. Praise God for that hope. God is with us.


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