I don’t want to…


What do you do when you just “don’t want to” anymore? I’m sure you understand that comment…because we have all been at that point. You may be there right now. There are different levels of this emotion, and some of us have the “I don’t want to’s” on a daily basis. This can simply be habitual thinking, or you may be experiencing a deep and serious emotion of exasperation. We face roadblocks in our lives that can leave us feeling helpless and hopeless. We take the advice of those around us…and we attempt to “see the positive” and pray, pray, pray. Instead of feeling like we are moving forward towards a new direction…we feel like we are being faced with even more. How are we supposed to go through even more…when we already felt like we wanted to give up? Why do things happen to us when we are making even more effort to seek God? These are raw and real human questions. So, what are the answers? Biblical scholars have been trying to answer these questions for centuries. It is not a new subject. We cannot possibly know all the answers to our questions. What we DO know…is that God is not punishing you, or making things happen to you on purpose. God is love. More than anything, God desires for you to be free from the burdens. Many times we only seek God in a more intimate way, when we become desperate for God’s help. We tend to use God as a temporary fix…instead of relying upon God as our source of existence. God gave us His only Son Jesus Christ…so we could be given the opportunity of eternal life. God knows what you are going through today. God gave you the ability to seek His help and be forgiven and delivered…through the resurrection of His Son Jesus Christ. We must never forget that we cannot give up…because God made a way for you to press through. Surrender your heart to Jesus…who is the way, the truth and the life. Face each day with the hope that we have in Jesus. Build your faith by surrendering each obstacle to God in prayer; not just when you need help…but every single day. Make the effort to build a relationship with God, and He will fight the fight for you, and your life will begin to shift in a new direction.

“For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him.” JOHN 3:16-17

When Jesus spoke again to the people, He said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” JOHN 8:12

God is with us.


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Layla Freeman

Layla Freeman is a wife, mother, friend, and encourager to all. She is a passionate disciple of Jesus Christ. Layla is the C.E.O. and Founder of the Non-Profit outreach ministry called “Light of Hope”. www.lightofhopeinc.org. This is an outreach to help individuals and families who are struggling with addiction and life difficulties. On Christmas Eve 2013, Layla lost her oldest daughter Ashley. Ashley was only 23 years old. There is no greater pain than child loss. Layla attributes her ability to face each day, to the overwhelming love of Jesus, who carries her through. This very difficult journey has given Layla the desire to help those who are facing difficult times and to help people see the hope. Her love for helping others is the passion behind Light of Hope. Light of Hope non-profit ministry has a vast variety of services that encourage, educate, empower and bring change and hope to the lives of those who need restoration and new life. Layla was awarded the Non-Profit “Leading Lady” award of Rogers County in 2018. She was also voted #1 community volunteer “Best of Claremore” in both 2019 & 2020. On June 9, 2020, Layla Freeman was Inducted into the Prestigious Marquis Who’s Who Biographical National Registry, as well as recognized as an “Amazing Oklahoman” in October 2020. Additionally, her non-profit Light of Hope was awarded the "Non-Profit of the Year" in both 2019 & 2020 and is also the winner of the International 2020 Drug Enforcement Administration (DEA) Community Drug Prevention Award. Layla is also an author. Her first book publication, HOPE IN THE STRUGGLE, offers hope in the midst of dark times. Layla is also the author of the encouragement blog “Layla’s Light,” found on Facebook or on her website, www.laylafreeman.com. She has been actively writing since 2001. Layla’s personal experience in the extreme difficulties of life gives her a deep understanding of brokenness. Therefore, Layla’s writing and passion behind her desire to help others is empowered by the truth of God’s unconditional love and forgiveness, and the hope we find in God’s promises. Layla is also a Business Owner/Vice President of Asset Industrial, Inc. She and her husband, Randall, work together providing services necessary for the oil refinery industry. She is also a respected Executive Committee Board Member, serving on the State Northeast Oklahoma Workforce Development Board. Layla is a public speaker and enjoys the opportunity to speak and present to groups, schools, churches, organizations, conferences, etc. She has a passion to bring awareness, education, and hope to our society. She believes that working together, and collaboration with others is the key to healthy families and stronger communities. In addition, Layla is a Stephen Minister, Congregational Care Minister, Lay Servant/Speaker, and a volunteer for the Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation. (Layla has two daughters who face Type 1 Diabetes daily).

4 thoughts on “I don’t want to…

  1. Amen,Been Going Thorough But God is Still God And I Trust God for all Thing’s! I Truly Thank God for His protection,All the Days of My Life,As I Was Praying, God Allowed Me To Look Back and Seen The Hand of Protection On My life,Especially Those Dark Days of Physical an Emotional Abuse as a Very Young Woman an Mother, I Cannot Stop Praising God Enough!!

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  2. Layla, I just wanted to thank you because you have helped me tremendously at a time about a yr ago when I went thru a year long situation that was a horrible mess with my family. You encouraged me not to give up and that God does love me and was there for me. You were there at times when I was at my lowest and wanted to die. You told me to keep on keeping on and brought a ray of lite to me. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart!!!!!!!!! ❤️

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    1. Oh Diane!!! I’m so happy for you my friend. God is always with us and He carries us through things we never thought possible. It is so good to hear your testimony!! Praise Jesus!!


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